Wednesday, 2 May 2012

Changing Relations !!!

It is really wonderful to notice how your relations with people who at one point of time seems like nobody to you becomes so close so dear to you that you become addicted to their company, their advice, their presence.

Something like above even happened to me. Before a year and half or so I met one pretty babelious girl at my training institute. I had a huge crush on her on first day itself. Her lovely girly attitude caught my heart and I began dreaming of her. Gradually with my funny punch lines, I caught her attention and we were soon acquainted to each other (not friends yet). I was hitting on her madly but she was too smart to catch my intentions and thus asked me to STOP.

I eventually moved on to other girl... had good time with her... broke off with her as we all know story goes on and on.

But the girl i talked about in second paragraph, all of sudden, came back to my life. We started meeting, talking, chatting... But then something terrible happened which I had never wished. She told me one day that she is engaged. Land under my feet was slipping and I was there standing dumb... with no clue what to do. I realized I loved her, I realized I was willing to spend rest of my life with her, I realized YES SHE IS THE ONE.

She considered me a good friend and I was considering her more than good friend and this is where all the problems in the world starts. A guy's mind always thinks why is he loving her so much though he know that the girl belongs to someone else. Why his heart is not ready to accept that he is alone again? Why his mind is not letting her memories go? We shared the most amazing moments of life with each other. Memories on which in future if we reflect upon brings a huge smile on our face. But I was so desperate to make her mine that I started loosing my insanity and started creating troubles for her. My non-acceptance of her situation became tolerance for her and reason for madness to me. But I am amazed how beautifully she had handled my distorted mind and my plight. She was always the one who supported me in bad times, inspired me in bad times, held me in bad times so that i don't fall.

I confused her care for me as her love and again got more and more miserable. We guys never think that there can be something more than love between a guy and girl. We never realize that beautiful things and people are never to be possessed. I realized that very late but fortunate to at least have realized. By forcing her into relationship with me, I was making her unhappy but by letting her go... I realized I am free and she is also happy.

I lost my love but gained something far more precious... that is her friendship. I am honored to be part of her life now. I am grateful to God for gifting me such a wonderful person. I have never seen God in my entire life but if God existed he would be no different than my friend. I am blessed first to be a stranger to her, then a one-side lover of hers and now a sweet friend of hers.

I dedicate this article to my friend who made my life so beautiful. I am highly indebted to you. Heartily thanks for all your care, all your advices, all your anger, all your winks, all your stupidity, all your tolerance, all your acceptance, all you faith in me...Love you.