Thursday, 29 March 2012

16 to 24 years of age. What a time to be alive. You get to enjoy the emotional roller coaster. I believe, that after 24 years of age, after passing through number of break ups, after listening to heart breaking sad songs in dim lights of room, after making rings of cigarette puffs in memory of separated girlfriends, a guy like me hardly wishes to live.

What an excitement this age gives. What a vibrancy it has. Totally awesome.

Today I wish to write on something I don't know what to title it. I am living with some of the most deadliest but most beautiful days of my life with a girl. To ease the tangles of my relationship, I often spend time to understand her. But my efforts stay futile. Even if you know her from past considerable amount of days, you find her beyond your understanding and which is the reason why you keep on holding to her.

Life becomes so beautiful when you know that you have one person on planet who cares for you. I find myself very fortunate if I will be able to bring a cute smile on her face daily. It feels so blissed to become a reason of someone's smile . But what if that person is never destined to be yours?

What would you do? Number one, Stop talking to her! If you stop talking to her, who will be at loss? Of course you. You will miss those beautiful moments of life which fills your life with immense joy. Number two, You will start ignoring? But by ignoring, you mean you don't want to notice them. Again, your wish not to notice them itself becomes a reason to remember them. Number three, cut all the relationship with her. Cutting relationship with someone whom you consider your lifeline... Will you be able to live without them? Number four, commit suicide. Finishing your self will definitely end your lovely turmoil but think of the person who has tolerated your craziness for such a long time, what will she feel? If you really love her, then would you wish to give her such an enormous pain of your absence.

A broken heart always comes up with such a juvenile inner battle. But this battle is unavoidable. The mighty hearts are always held in slender chain.  

Have we ever understood what your partner wants from you? Guys like me even fail to know what the opposite person wants. In a relationship, we always exploit the other person for satisfying your ego. Can't we think in the other way around. Can't we live just because she wants us to be at their side. Can't we make a simple choice between the girl being with you...unhappy and girl being with someone else and remaining happy. Why does love always want, want and want? Why is it so possessive? Why our heart is too small that the person inside is barely able to breathe?

I know it takes great courage to see your girl with other guy but if she is happy does anything else matter? What is more important your ego satisfaction of having her or her happiness? Love is to give. To let go what is most lovely to you, it takes courage. To imagine her in bed with someone needs courage. Accepting that the girl who cares of someone else more than she does for you, needs courage. To imagine that your life is no more colorful in her absence needs courage. To open your eyes without memories in your mind needs courage. To hope and live knowing that she will never be yours need courage.

thank you. bless me with the courage !!!

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